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Sunday, May 20, 2007Y
1:17 PM
sheesssh, this post is particular for someone who has already occupied my entire heart and soul. :Di don't know why but somehow i just cannot figure out how much that person means to me.
let's call the person X
just a few months back, i'm like completely forgotten about X
(no messaging or something)
but i don't know why, on just this particular day,
when me and some friends were outside, with X also, my heart is like pumping like mad lorh.
i don't know what happened, i just felt cold.
the heart is like not just pumping fast for a instance only okay,
is like fast throughout.
i can hear and feel it very clearly.
and that day, i don't dare to look into X's eyes
i've tried to overcome the past and tell myself that we are friends once again like before.
however, to no avail.
i totally have no courage to even look into X's eyes when X is talking.
(but of course when X is talking to me, i'll reply larh)
LOL not as if we are strangers XP
i just feel very lost somehow
that day, when i was on my way back (in a car)
i was thinking "what exactly is happening to me? what do i feel towards X?"
just can't figure out.
this feeling is like when you are stuck in a forest, covered with mist and you cannot find your way back.
FOLLOW MY HEART i would say, but my heart is drifting away.
i'm indecisive;
i couldn't find the answers to my doubts.
anw seriously, somehow i really feel that X would say this to me " i don't ahem you eons ago already."
maybe people will think i'm mad but this is the one and only way that can take that feeling away from me.
because everything will go back to normal after a big cry. (:
unlike now, i couldn't do anything, and that feeling is haunting me.
i'm really scared..
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